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Finding Your True Self

I often tell people the last thing you will lose in addiction is yourself. It just happens probably as a result of all the lying and brain fog. Finding yourself after all your abuse takes time as with everything in…

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Relationships

The other day in group, a good friend pointed out that his sponsor had told him “no new relationships for a year.’ That is very good advice. When you hear the slogan, “we will love you until you can love…

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meetings?

I was just thinking the other day about meetings. Pretty amazing the way they work. A buch of misfits show up at a location and sit down together. We all listen to “how it works, the steps and traditions" to…

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Don't sell short

Something that I didn’t understand as a newbee in recovery was the depth of the Gods Grace that would be revealed in the program. I finally did realize however, that life in addiction is a dead end and a rote…

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Undeniable

A.A. got it’s early start through the Oxford group founded on Christian biblical principles which were broken down into twelve simple steps. Always thought of it as sort of God for dummies. 

I was certainly a dummy when I got…

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Not what I deserve

I was working on a new piece entitled change before I left for treatment. Now that I’m back, I have. 

Its strange having had good health for so long to now have things wrong and doctors telling you about your…

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Grief

Something we must all go through from time to time but it’s not a place to live. We all have divine purpose that needs to be fulfilled and to accomplish that, we must continue to strive ahead. It is never…

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Worry

Its crazy.. I use to never worry back in the day. Just drink my worries away, but now nearly forty years sober, I worry.  I suppose its because I have a conscience. I wonder how my actions affect others and

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The Haunting

Sometimes I go there… 

Into the past. Kind of like a haunting. Frozen images and old worn out video clips of me and others that never change. I so wish I could change them but alas I cannot. I don’t…

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Only One Truth

I met a new friend online and other day. He also suffers from cancer but unlike me, He has it worse. He has no energy at all, near death, and must rely so on his wonderful wife to help him…

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Home

Having returned home things are slowly returning to normal. S L O W L Y.. It’s the age thing. I have decided to keep a daily blog going as I feel the need to stay connected online on a regular…

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