Saturday June 12th 6:17 AM
Had a dream last night about Love and then this morning an early fire to contemplate Love and sin.
I use to be an avid sinner. Sin promotes itself. Sin is wrong. Sin destroys. Sin surrounds itself with like sin. Sin is a lie. By God’s Grace I am not the sinner I was before the program I am just the sinner I am now after the revelation of Jesus Christ in my life.
Love is all we are taking with us when we leave this place. I know I have not loved enough. A pure love motive from the heart is what I must seek after, but now, so late in life, I have missed so many opportunities because of my selfishness. Like they say in the program “ Dont beat yourself up.“ Yet… conviction is a good thing for it pushes us forward into the light. “His rod and His staff comfort us.”. Hopefully.. Eventually. The alternative is not too pretty, but with all things spiritual, it all about the choices we make.
The world is indeed a sinful place where we are told what is right is wrong and what is wrong is right. What else could it be, for all of the world are laid out by the prince of darkness. Thank God for the fellowship. Where truth is know as the way to real life. There, we all were dying for the truth. Good churches sort of review the truth, but not too much dying for it. In some churches, thank God, the Gospel of Jesus Christ, humanities author of Truth, can still be heard. .
The fellowship does not promote Christ which seems to be a tragedy, yet so many minds have been damaged by a fouled Christian message. For it has always been about relationship not religion, not the other way round.. From the fellowship perspective I get it, pushing Christian principles, before Christ personality. It’s kinda like a back door to get you to practice Christian principles in the great hope that through your actions Christ will be revealed. Yet... we cannot earn salvation, but Like they say, it's not what you say but what you do that counts. The program had to be divinely inspired by Bill and Bob and the one hundred that put the text together for look how many have come to the saving knowledge of Christ’s Grace. However, as we with some time in the program know, there is only one gate. and that gate is opened only by the revelation of Jesus. Only showed to us of the fellowship, when our hearts have been broken sufficiently enough to allow Him to.
Simple but not easy…
April 30th 2021 8:26 AM
Have not written for a while, so I thought I would give an update. Health is slowly getting better according to the doctors. I am trying my best to help those numbers improve by exercise and just treating myself better. Life has been great lately. I guess that’s the way it is in recovery. We finally get sober and things get good then we run out of time…Shucks.
So grateful today for everything the Lord has done in my life and also of course for all of you!
Much new music on the way! Our new EP "Healthy Humble Pie" out tomorrow. Hope you like it! Just want you all to know that along with all the work and effort in production, many tears are spilled over this music. Its is a very emotional process. Early sponsors use to tell me that through the process of recovery I was going to get much more sensitive. I did not believe that then, but with so many things they told me over the years.. I do now.
God’s blessing on all of you and please keep coming back!
March 24th 2021 2:12 AM
Can’t sleep.. worried about all that is happening in our country. One day at a time we continue with our walk of faith in God, faith in the fellowship. In the present moment all is well with my soul. God is with us who can be against us. Love conquers all.
Today I’m doing alright, but I can feel my years.
This is my life. It is what God has given me to do and it comes from a place of truth deep inside of me. I hope I am helpful. The evil that has become became so prevalent today has sadly compelled me to write songs calling out this evil the world.
I certainly understand that we all fall short, it is the human condition, but for those that dictate and legislate for the rest of us, there are bigger decisions and much bigger consequences. Millions of lives rest in those decisions. I am glad I am not in those BIG shoes for there will be earth shattering reprisals against those who fall to the dark forces.
Millions of us today stand for what is right. By God’s blessed Grace WE are the salt. I am not sure what will happen if all the salt on earth loses if savor but I can tell you this.. I don’t want to find out. Yes, I will stand with those of you still seeking truth until the day I die for in truth there is freedom.
Febuary 22nd 2021 5:28 AM
I know who my enemy is. Darkness throws so much at us these days but, by God Grace and the Blood of Christ We will stand strong. Nothing about this is easy yet, We are compelled to declare the one Truth, the one God, the one Way to our new lives. Yes, with God’s Grace and our declaration of the sinners prayer, we WILL be brought into that blessed union with Jesus Christ now and forever.
February 4th 2021 12:50 PM
Well, its a little past midnight here at the oasis, and I just have the urge to write.
Yesterday I had the pleasure of seeing a good friend at the cancer infusion sight. I was there for a possible blood infusion to build me up for the drug I am now on. He was there taking heavy chemo. I felt so blessed. He had lost his voice to cancer but a miracle of science may restore it in a few months if all goes well. I pray that it does.
I was telling my wonderful wife yesterday, that I need to write a song about “ THE PILL “ a small strange looking pill that comes from a bottle that talks to you, to make sure that you "TAKE ME". Kinda like Alice in Wonderland with her “drink me” bottle, and to top it all off, this tiny yellow and black bee looking capsule is the only thing between me and certain death… DONT MISS A DOSE OR YOUR CURTAINS!
It’s almost comical..
Thank you so much for all your prayers! They are working! I‘m still here and doing fine. I don’t believe God is through with me yet. I have much new music in different stages of completion that will be coming out soon as well as the third step EP next month. I do not understand how he does it. I have no idea what I am doing, yet the work comes, and by the time the inspiration leaves and the others have added their amazing talents, the song has said just what “WE” needed to say. I pray the message is clear and strong on your end.
I am sure people think I’m crazy. I guess it helps as a musical recovery advocate… after all
We’re telling people who don’t want to hear
A message they won’t believe
About an invisible loving God
That speaks to them through a fellowship of Love and truth
Comprised of a bunch of addicted drunks
That will bring them a life beyond their wildest dreams
IF they will only accept this FREE gift of Grace!
Keep those prayers coming, because as you can plainly see, I need all the help I can get!
January 29th 2021
Today I am on day three of the Chemo. I am feeling weaker, but yet there is so much to do. Great new music written in different levels of completion. Trying to get the Step Two EP ready for Febuary, as well as the new piece ICU. Hope you like it. Love you guys! Please pray for me and for our country.
January 17th 2021
Today I sit here with critically low blood numbers, waiting on my new chemo medication and wondering what will happen? Will our country go the way of socialism with more oppression and corruption, or will God do something miraculous over the next few days. I suppose war is here today. The prophets say Gods justice is coming. I pray they are correct.
Have mercy on us Father...Thy will be done.
January 9th 2021
Well I guess things they are a changing. I will be going onto an oral chemo type drug in the near future. In the meantime I will be trying to get my numbers up by transfusions. New music is on the way. I appreciate all your prayers and hope all will be go well over the adjustment time of a few months. Patiots stand strong!
December 31st 2020 New Years Eve " Be Careful! "
Well, its 2 AM. I am so grateful for all the Lord has done for me. I never knew I could be so loved. As the cancer grows I am getting closer to the taking some of the hard science of which I am not too excited about yet through my support network I am encouraged. I have done quite a bit of homework and feel I am on the right track. Hope I continue to be able to sleep well.
The music has been fast and furious. Have been working on our new heavy blues number about that nasty rapacious creditor. When we were in Williamsburg a week ago I was able to write a higher new Nashville strung song but I need to get that started in the studio soon. I think its going to turn out really well. A beautiful song about God’s perfect plan for each an every one of us.
Thank you all for your prayers! Please keep them coming. Hope to be here for many more years. Love you all, Praying for you and wishing you a wonderful new year!
P.S. I love my Kids and Grandkids BIGTIME all thirty-two of um.. and don’t yoou forget it!
December 12th 2020
Well, its 1:30 AM here… Just thought I would give everyone an update. I have added another doctor to the lineup.. He is a specialist that deals with my type of Leukemia. I think he will be very helpful as I go forward into therapy. I am optimistic about the outcome just hope I don’t lose my quality of life.
Much new music now working along with ICU and Only child I have a new rocker that I am excited about. ICU is off for vocal work and I have to muster the courage to sing again on the others successfully.. Not too sure how long that’s gonna last for my voice is going, but I’m gonna give it a go. Will be taking some time out for the holidays.
Please pray for our country this Christmas that the Lord will bring truth back to our land!
November 26th Thanksgiving day today…
My wife has been fighting something but this morning it came on.. PRAY that it is not COVID that’s all we need.
She is so wonderful.. had been working hard in the kitchen all day yesterday preparing food for a Thanksgiving dinner with close friends... all down the drain now.
Sat down with the oncologist yesterday. The story is always the same… swimming upstream hoping not to have to take the bait but I guess.. Thankful its there.
Two new songs on the way ICU for Christmas and Only Child for 1st step month. I try to match up an EP each month for how I see things through a Christian iWorld lens. I believe the monthly EP stays more relevant and focused rather than our archive. Thank God for music it is such a part of my life. A gift from the Almighty. Thank you father for all you do for me my wife and family and all of us in recovery…
We praise your holy name!