Sometimes I hear the most profound things from newcomers. A lovely woman tonight with only a few days said…
“In these rooms, for the first time in many years, I feel like I am being seen for who I really am.”
What a wonder-filled powerful statement for truth! Yes, if you can’t reveal your true self to us, then who can you reveal yourself to. We are the fellowship of the brokenhearted. As I tell others often, we all did half of everything you did, we’re just not sure which half we did, the bad or the worst. We are not saints. Rest assured, no one in recovery is gonna start pointing fingers at anyone besides themselves. We only offer true acceptance for love and tolerance is our code.
I considered what she said, as was brought back to my early days in recovery…
Crawling into the rooms, it had been many, many years since I had shown my true colors to anyone. I had been living a secret life. Lying to the point of not even knowing who I was anymore! So being able to put down my long standing charade was an unbelievable relief and so needed in order to heal.
Finally, I had come to the end of that lie and was made to understand, by God’s Grace, that it was time for me to become real by embracing the truth, or die. Time to give up the masquerade and the useless indoctrinations of the world as I knew them. Time to allow myself to become who I really am, a tiny but critically important part of the Great I am.
to be continued.. if you stay so. that more will be revealed!