At the meeting the other day we spoke about recovery delivering back to us what we had lost in addiction. It has certainly done that, but more than that, I was thinking of what recovery has given me that I never ever had before. Having been in continuous recovery for many years I have a long list. At this writing however, I think I’ll just cover two.
Love it seems to me now, is what life is all about. Love is a funny thing, much like recovery in that “ You can’t keep it unless you give it away.” Maybe that’s what they were talking about? A spiritual problem needs a spiritual solution and Love is surely a spiritual solution. Funny, like so many of us when I got here, I could not even love myself. Evident, by what I was doing to myself. Very different today for a balanced self love has returned and with it finally, the ability to truly love others.
Blessed Peace is where I live today. Connected, every moment that I choose to be, with our loving, faithful Father. Serenity came shorty after I came into the program and started working the steps. I was standing on a busy intersection, in a hurry, waiting on a red light to change when it hit me. The serene calm came down briefly, but so foreign to me I didn’t even know what it was. I ask my sponsor about it. He said it was serenity and that it would come back and stay a little longer IF I stuck with the program. I didn’t believe him but, he was right. Now as crazy as it seems, instead of living in anxiety and chaos all the time seldom finding peace, I live in peace and seldom ever fall into anxiety… Amazing!
I could go on and on and on about what has been given to me. Spiritual gifts that come by seeking truth. The truth this cowboy did not know! Thank God you did and didn’t keep it to yourselves. I think you had already had been taught …
To keep it you have to give it away.