How I've Felt LatelyFriday May 17th 2020 / 174.7 pounds

After 8 weeks in isolation I have decided to begin to write.

I apologize to everyone for not being around the live circuit. When nineteen hit it was lock down for me and the wife. The longer I’ve been in, the more strength I lose but, I am hoping I can get it back. Dealing with some new infection for past few days has been quite the experience. As you may know, being diagnosed with Leukemia in August of last year, this was the first time I had really been laid out by it . By the Grace of God I’m coming back without the aid of chemotherapy drugs. Praise God!

It’s about six in the morning and beautiful as Bax ( my Doggie ) and I had a chance to cruised the neighborhood. This pic indicates how I have been feeling the past few days but this day so very grateful to be standing up feeling alive with appetite. God bless my wife!

So you say got a blog eh Jake… well sup?

We have a new tune entitled Cast that has been on the back burner that need to get completed. I also realize that God has done this thing for me as I have mentioned in person to many of you. He wants me to express to you His urgency for you open your hearts to Him in order to feel what real love means.   It takes two. Also to help me preserver and extend my reach via Zoom. So if your in a Zoomesk kinda facility or group and need a free, clean and sober musical  recovery speaker to zoom in, I’m your man. For I feel it will only be the Grace of God to have the opportunity to be with you live again.

May 20th 1:09 AM 177 Pounds

I just got up.. not easy. Thinking about my life and what I had been up to for the last 20 years and came up with this…

 

Going to places no one wants to go

Seeing the faces no one wants to see

Talking to those who don’t want to hear

About something they need that nobody wants

 

Pretty crazy huh?

I was online last evening with an older group from Florida and a woman said that old line that I have heard so very many times from others directed to me.. "You care more about those people than you care about me!"

Many times I have had that exact line screamed at me as loud as possible right in front of my face or wept so sadly in front of me through a vail of tears.

How can we explain this to others?

If you were anything like me, the fellowship was and still is a lifeline to sanity in a crazy world. So many times I remember being dropped off at meetings…“ It was about dusk on that dingy little street, with a few very strange characters huddled around a worn out doorway. A somber mood completed the scene with clouds of blue smoke and low discussions with an occasional peal of shrieking laughter “ Yep.. that AA all right. Thank God for you people! Even after sanity had returned I still need you people to show me crazy, so that I can know I'm still on the right side.. Whatever that is?

Ya feel me?

If you get a minute, please say a prayer for me, cause it's not so easy being be today. THANK YOU !